Sanders Family Unabridged Part 3 (January 2015 continued)

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Van living was not as bad as we were expecting. Definitely not ideal, but it worked. We ended up driving around, moving from one parking lot to another a few times because we weren’t sure if we were allowed to park in one spot overnight. This is not something you would normally need to know in life. There are a couple of parks with open restrooms that we were able to go into and change in the mornings. We all brushed our teeth on the way to school. This consists of everyone brushing, a cup being passed around for everyone to spit in, all toothbrushes being passed up to mom, mouthwash passed around, the cup being passed around again to spit out the mouthwash, mom getting the cup and then the cup being dumped outside and rinsed once we can get to some grass. We also belong to a local recreation center and were able to take showers there. Aaron and I stayed up most nights and were very groggy the next day. We napped in the van after dropping the kids off. We felt guilty for doing so, since the kids had to keep their brains alert all day at school, but we claimed old age and gave in to the sleepiness.

We lasted in the van until Wednesday, when my friend called to see how we were doing. She let us know their house was open to us at any time. We prayed about it and still felt like the van is where we were supposed to be. We talked to the kids about it again and they also said that the van was where we needed to be. The older two said they were ok with the van, but if there was an option to be somewhere else they wanted to take it. So, comfort won out again and we headed back to our friends’ house. We all knew we weren’t really supposed to be staying at their house and having our kids camped out in their living room made it even worse, so this time we had them all stay in the room with us. We made four blanket pallets on the floor and they all picked a spot to crash.

A week later Aaron took the kiddos to school while I stayed at the house to pray and write. He came back on a major rampage. He told me he had a shouting session with God on the way back from the schools. He said he informed God that he had not given up everything he had and left everything behind to serve some weak ass church god. He was tired of only hearing platitudes of “it’s going to be ok. God is going to restore.” He left everything to find and know the mighty God of the Bible, so that God had better put up or shut up. He even asked God to just kill all of us, if he was not going to show up. I really wasn’t ok with that. He didn’t ask my permission to say that to God. I scooted over to the other side of the room, because I was certain a bolt of lightning was going to scorch him, or a big fist was going to come through the ceiling at any moment and thunk him on the head. I figured if he was so intent on duking it out with God he could go right ahead and get his butt kicked. I was staying out of it, safe in my little corner. A few moments after his rant was over he heard his phone buzz. I heard him mutter, “This better be something.” as in significant from God. It was a text from a family member saying they had just finished their devotions for the day and had thought of us when they read the following verses. They felt they needed to share them, in hopes of giving us some encouragement: “We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed. We are perplexed, but not driven to despair. We are hunted down, but never abandoned by God. We get knocked down, but we are not destroyed.” 2 Corinthians 4:8-9. This was Aaron’s inspiration to write the post “Pressed, but not Crushed”. I read further and felt like verse 10 was giving us the point of all of this troubling, perplexing, hunting and knocking down. “Through suffering, our bodies continue to share in the death of Jesus so that the life of Jesus may also be seen in our bodies.” 2 Corinthians 2:10. We try to carefully craft our lives so that all the good things that happen to us can show people how great God is and we have it all wrong. It is through our troubles, trials and pain that he can do the impossible. It’s when there is no hope and nothing more we can do, that he can shine. It is when we die that he lives and is seen in us. It was after this that Aaron calmed down and had the realization that he was attributing things to God that are not him at all and that is what prompted him to write his, “The Day we got a Divorce” blog post.

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Author: Jen Sanders

I'm the wife of a gorgeous hunk of man named Aaron and momma of 4 beautiful offspring that occasionally make me want to pull my hair out. My life goal is to be like Jesus.

4 thoughts on “Sanders Family Unabridged Part 3 (January 2015 continued)”

  1. 1. I would like to know what you mean by “weak ass church god”?

    2. You need to explain what God is telling you why it differs from His word when he says:

    1 Timothy 5:8 (KJV)
    [8] But if any provide not for his own, and specially for those of his own house, he hath denied the faith, and is worse than an infidel.
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    How Jesus told Peter to go to work to pay for Peter’s and Jesus’ taxes?

    How the great apostle Paul worked in his profession while doing a work for God.

    How God, from the beginning, commanded man to work in the garden and then cursed the ground after sin entered.

    3. You need to explain why all of a sudden you have decided to ask for charity when you boasted a few blogs ago that you would not do that.

    4. You need to explain when job opportunities were placed in your lap why you would say that was not God.

    There is a story of a man who was in the Middleton a flood. He believed God was going to save him. The police came by and they said you need to get out. He said no, God is going to save me. The water got higher and he moved up to the second floor and kept saying God is going to save me. A boat came by and the people said get in we can help you. He said no, God is going to save me. The water continued to rise and he went up to the roof. A helicopter came by and said we will throw a rope down to you and pull you to safety. He said no, God is going to save me. The man drowns and when he gets to the judgment seat he asked God why He didn’t save him. God said, I sent you a car, a boat, and a helicopter.

    Sometimes we miss God’s direction because we are expecting the great supernatural, when God is sending us natural.

    I love you guys, but there are a lot of questions that need to be answered. Please I would truly like to know the answers to these questions

    1. 1. I would like to know what you mean by “weak ass church god”?

      See the post “The day we got a divorce” for a detailed explanation.

      2. You need to explain what God is telling you why it differs from His word when he says:
      1 Timothy 5:8 (KJV)
      [8] But if any provide not for his own, and specially for those of his own house, he hath denied the faith, and is worse than an infidel.
      How Jesus told Peter to go to work to pay for Peter’s and Jesus’ taxes?
      How the great apostle Paul worked in his profession while doing a work for God.
      How God, from the beginning, commanded man to work in the garden and then cursed the ground after sin entered.

      Answer: I would gladly explain this to you if I could. I can only refer you to Jesus. He directed his 12 disciples to go out without provision in Luke 9 and then directed 72 others to do the same in Luke 10. It does not say if they had families or not or what it looked like to walk it out and I don’t think it matters. They just obeyed. This direction was clearly not a rule, rather it was a specific direction for a specific time (Luke 22:35). What God has asked our family to do falls into this category. I can not explain why God has directed us to do it, or why Jesus’ directed his disciples in Luke to do it, I just know he did. How do I know? We have the fruits of the spirit as evidence and a peace that comes from obeying a loving heavenly father.

      3. You need to explain why all of a sudden you have decided to ask for charity when you boasted a few blogs ago that you would not do that.

      Answer: When you say “ask for charity”, I can only assume that you are referring to the donate button on our page. That is there because we have had many requests, from people around the world, who say they have been led to support us financially. The donate button was added so that they could do what God asked them to do. We are not actively soliciting charity.

      4. You need to explain when job opportunities were placed in your lap why you would say that was not God.
      There is a story of a man who was in the Middleton a flood. He believed God was going to save him. The police came by and they said you need to get out. He said no, God is going to save me. The water got higher and he moved up to the second floor and kept saying God is going to save me. A boat came by and the people said get in we can help you. He said no, God is going to save me. The water continued to rise and he went up to the roof. A helicopter came by and said we will throw a rope down to you and pull you to safety. He said no, God is going to save me. The man drowns and when he gets to the judgment seat he asked God why He didn’t save him. God said, I sent you a car, a boat, and a helicopter.
      Sometimes we miss God’s direction because we are expecting the great supernatural, when God is sending us natural.

      Answer: Nice story. Once again, all I can tell you is that we have sincerely prayed about EVERY potential job that has come our way and God has clearly told us no. I know that this is very difficult for our Americanized Christian mind to comprehend, but that is the only answer that I have.

      I love you guys, but there are a lot of questions that need to be answered. Please I would truly like to know the answers to these questions.

      I know that you are asking these questions sincerely and out of love for us and we appreciate you taking the time to comment.

      1. I appreciate your response. However, I have some things to say.

        1. My God is neither “weak”, nor is He an “ass”. If that is the perspective of your god/church, then you needed to change both your church and your perspective of God, which sounds like you are trying to do, but by doing nothing is not going to fix your perspective.

        2. When Jesus sent the people out, he commanded them to reach the lost and do the miraculous. So, they were sent out to work since ministering should be hard work. I would encourage you to begin reaching the lost and expecting God to do the miraculous for others. This is what He instructed his disciples to do in Luke 9 & 10. You can be used greatly for an end time revival by following Luke 9 & 10. I feel this very strong in the Holy Ghost.

        God is wanting to use you all for His glory to reach a lost and dying world, especially in Nashville.

        We need people who will be determined to bring Apostolic doctrine and Apostolic experience together and when we do, there will be a great revival according to John 6:2. People will follow Jesus when they begin to see His healing and miracle working power.

      2. “I would encourage you to begin reaching the lost and expecting God to do the miraculous for others. ”

        Thank you for the encouragement. We will continue to listen to and obey the still small voice of God and allow him to control the end result. If it is a great revival, I am all for it and if it is simply an example of a person faithfully following God, I am all for that as well.

        I also agree with you regarding ministry being hard work, I have never worked harder than I have the last two years.

        Be blessed!

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