Friday April 10, 2015
Obedience certainly comes with surprises! It has been less than a month since we decided to listen to the God nudges and step out into the craziest thing we’ve ever done (living in a van) and an amazing peace has met us there. While our bodies are certainly not the most comfortable they’ve ever been, our spirits are feeling a peace that has been absent the past several months. I feel like if it were visible we would see a big cushy, hug-able something surrounding us. I have no idea what it would be, I just know I’d want to hug it! Haha!
Monday April 13, 2015
Down to $5.00 in our pockets again. I wonder if God is gauging our reactions when we get there; do we still trust him or are we going to freak out?
We were able to get a decent amount of “van friendly” food from the church’s food pantry. Having no running water, stove or microwave really narrows down one’s options. Ha! The bulk of food for the week is canned ham and PBJ’s. Not the healthiest, but it keeps the babies’ bellies full.
Two portions of scripture have really given peace and hope today.
“Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.” Isaiah 43:18-19
“I am the Lord; that is my name; my glory I give to no other, nor my praise to carved idols. behold, the former things have come to pass, and new things I now declare; before they spring forth I tell you of them.” Isaiah 42:8-9
Wednesday April 15, 2015
We had an interesting life conversation with the kiddos. They were asking us why we get stressed out so often. Oh, sweet clueless children! We admitted to them that there are a lot of things in our life that shouldn’t stress us out if we really believe that God is in control, but they still do, sometimes. We were also honest with them and told them that being in such close quarters with fighting, disobedient children would stress anybody out. Hehe! They made a deal with us and said that they would do better about not fighting and disobeying if we would do better with not stressing about how things are going to work out. Jack said, “Let’s live like we won’t see tomorrow!” We’ve seen God’s amazing goodness and provision over and over again so we know he is faithful. Now I want to know how long these kiddos are going to stick to being nice and obedient!!
Saturday April 18, 2015
Whenever, or if ever, we get to start our life center I’m going to be tempted to name it “Breaking Point” because that seems to be the place we continually get to. We just want to fix this whole “mess”! We are not dumb, we are not lazy. God, just let us be like normal people and go get “real” jobs!!! UGH!!!! As of Thursday we were down to 1/4 tank of gas in the van and all we had for food was some canned ham, mac n’ cheese (that we had no way to cook) and ramen noodles (again, that we had no way to cook). I had written a $20 check for a school function that hadn’t cashed yet so I called the teacher I gave it to and asked if she still had it if she could hold on to it for a little while longer. She still had it and was willing to wait to deposit it. We used that $20 to put gas in the van and ate canned ham and dry ramen noodles for supper. We ended up babysitting for a friend on Friday afternoon, so we were able to make the mac n’ cheese and put it into storage bowls so the kiddos could eat it after school. Now all our food was gone and we were not sure what we would be eating today. I stopped by Starbucks Friday night just before they closed, to see if my friend was working. She was and they had leftover pastries that had to be thrown out, so she gave them to me instead. The kiddos got to have pastries for breakfast. 🙂 We are really trying to listen to the Lord with an open heart, to wholeheartedly trust him and to live “give us this day” in complete faith. “Give us this day” is so much easier when you can see where and how you are going to get everything.
Monday April 20, 2015
We are feeling a little bit better today. On the way to our friends’ house to do laundry on Saturday afternoon we told the kiddos we were out of food and money and asked who wanted to pray that we would receive those things. Alex said he would and he told God what we needed and then thanked him for whatever he was going to send. I checked my emails while we were waiting in between our loads of laundry and someone had sent money to our Paypal account. It wasn’t a lot, it was just enough to get food for the day (Sunday we are able to stock up from the food pantry) and put gas in the van. The kiddos were so excited!! We were too, but their faith levels were through the roof. We ended up being at our friends’ house much longer than we had planned; children create a lot of laundry! Our friend came down to the room we were in and offered to cook a big pack of chicken they had, if we wanted to make something to go with it for supper. They are in a very similar situation to ours (except they are in a house. ha!) so I wanted to make something that would last for more than one meal, and they could have leftovers. Tacos to the rescue!! Seriously, you can never go wrong with tacos. They are a love language all in themselves. Our friends had also offered to let us crash at their place for the night. When Aaron took Alex to the store to get the other things we needed for the tacos, Alex told him he didn’t think we should stay the night there. He said his body would love the chance to stretch out, but it didn’t feel right in his spirit. Aaron and I hadn’t felt like we should either, but we hadn’t said anything to the kids. Maybe we were hoping to push it away, because we wanted the kiddos to be more comfortable. When they got back from the store Aaron told me about their conversation so, without telling anything about anyone else’s thoughts, we had the kiddos pray about it. They all said they were thankful for the offer, but that we should be in our van. They pray these things and listen honestly with their spirits. It amazes me!!! They admit that their bodies would love to be in a house, but that it doesn’t feel comfortable in their spirits. So many things about our journey are crazy, but I am thankful that our children are learning to listen to the Lord at such a young age and that they are willing to obey him even when it isn’t comfortable and doesn’t make sense.